About Me:

My name is Michael Patrick Lee, most people call me Michael or Mikey though. I was born on May 6, 1992 at the Halifax Hospital, meaning I’m 20. It’s pretty scary to actually think about it,  no longer being a teenager I mean. I guess I wont be able to use the “I’m just a teenager..” as an excuse anymore. Time really is flying! My zodiac sign is Taurus. What am I? I’m a person, or a human I guess, if you mean what gender, then I’m a male, and if you mean what orientation, I’m gay. I am currently a college student at Daytona State College, it’s local so it’s conveinent and it’s basically free! One last fun fact: Well you see, my best friend, Nicole and I, we have these alter egos… they help us cope with sadness and seriousness, to make our selfs feel better really. We have the white trash voices, our “friends” voices, our “church” voices, our game show host voices (I sound like Carlton, off The Fresh Prince of Belair),  auto-moronic (sounds like google translator) voices, the Staten Island-New York voices, our Metalocalypse voices (I am Nathan Explosion, Nicole is William Murderface),  and our mentally voices (I sound like Steward from MADTv). Our favorite is our “friends” voices. We do that the most, and the country voices. <3  

I live in the United States, in Florida.  I’ve lived my whole life in the same county and in the same state. It’s full of tourist and old people! I live in a little town called Edgewater, it’s near Daytona Beach and about an hour away from Orlando. We have a really nice beach here, anyways that’s why all the tourist come here. It’s alright, I’m not really a beach person though. I’m actually rather pale, but I like it. I just hate feeling like a tourist whenever I go to the beach! I just hate the heat, and I’m lazy. We have just about every theme park you’d want to go to here. My favorites are the Disney parks! I got to go to Halloween Horror night for my first time this year, twice! That was awesome and I hope I get to go again next year! :)

I Love (Good Things/Positive): I love making people feel good by giving advice or telling people how pretty or cute they look even when it isn’t necessarily needed. The littlest things usually make my each and every day, like someone just being sweet by smiling or opening a door for me I mean. There’s nothing better then feeling loved by someone special with something sweet to say. When people are nice to me I’m twice as nice back. I love money and spending it. I’m not a gold digger or anything, but sometimes I feel like money is a good thing, because material things can’t hurt us as much as people right? Sarcasm is my happiness, it keeps me going and mostly sane at times. I also use it to make myself feel better, cope, and adjust. I feel like I am a very logic person, and somewhat a realist. I need to have the answers and I need to know why something is what it is. You could call it closure I suppose. Something that also helps with that is when I realized staying busy helps ease pain. I guess that is a good thing though, because it makes me happy and it keeps my mind from wondering. I’m really nice and always trying keep a smile on my face, act friendly and polite towards everyone and even to strangers.

I Hate (Bad Things/Negative): The littlest things that usually make my day, also can destroy them,  I doubt myself far to much, and put myself down a lot. I have the horrible habit of biting my fingernails. I actually chew on my fingers sometimes when I sleep, it’s pretty weird. I hate my voice, because I think it sounds super gay and nerdy. I’m pretty shy and I don’t cope well with awkwardness. I second guess myself even when I have the answers, sometimes just to get a second opinion, usually because I feel timid or stupid a lot. If I feel awkward I’ll usually make it ten times as awkward for the people making me feel that way, or act like a bitch, or I’ll just fake text, that always works! I don’t get along with narrow-minded people. I feel like they need a wider view or understanding of why they feel the way they feel, so sorry if i’m putting my thoughts down your throat sometimes. Then again, there are some things we just don’t like, and that is okay, but it doesn’t mean I wont talk about it (unless it makes the person uncomfortable I mean.)  I don’t like egos or arrogance very much. I hate when people get confidence and an ego mixed up. On the other hand, I’m very self conscious, and I do care what other people think of me, so that could be why I don’t like egos. I hate when people cut me off in the middle of my sentences, or worse, don’t even listen to me the first time and say, “Sorry, what did you say?” like 5 times after. How rude are you, like seriously? I feel like I have angry problems sometimes. I procrastinate to much, worry, and think into things to much. Some people would say I’m very pessimistic, too sensitive, whinny, that I don’t care enough, or that I need to care more. It sounds like to me though people really don’t know what they want from me, this or that, and if I do that, then they want this, or very much the opposite! It’s always a change of mind really, but always the same argument. I’m sick of hurting and being walked on, so I have my reasons to feel the way I do sometimes. I only carry the invisible shield when I need to. I like to voice my opinions and be heard, but I feel like I don’t get to say enough a lot of the time, or people just aren’t listening. I guess with being so antisocial or with the lack of friends I have, so maybe that is why I say too much sometimes and write like this in an about me haha. Even though now I’m realizing that sometimes words are better left unsaid. When something is over, it might in fact be over, and after all the fighting for what we feel is right, even when there isn’t even anything to fight for in the beginning, but we insist on doing it anyways, because of what we see in it… as the BIG picture: whether the outcome, or for love. Sometimes enough is enough, and that’s what I’m learning now. To just step back.

I’m glad I take on any growing or learning experience that might face me. Also that everything that has happened to me lately has an ever lasting effect on me, or until the next situation when something else comes alone to challenge me that’s like it, or maybe the same just with something or someone new. I just need to leave myself remembering that in the end whatever I face will only make me stronger, wiser, and an overall better person. 

• Family & Lifestyle: 

I live at home with my mom, because I’m a student without a job. Yay, y’all! She’s a great mom and I feel like she puts me first a lot and not only that, but puts up with me a hell of a lot too. Not as much as I’d like though anymore. I feel like she has to much to worry about now to worry about me. Which is okay, because I am now 20 years old. I mean I am an ‘adult’ now. I’m just not used to it I guess. I feel like when I get the swing of college a little better, and job I will gain a lot from being an adult and become way more independent. As of right now, I feel small, like a fish in a little fish bowl wanting to branch out just a little. I’ll get there though! I have a tiny little dog named Minnie at home with me too. She is a Tea Cup Chihuahua, and she is nine years old as of December. I’ve had her since she was only a few months old. She is still as adorable as the day I got her. She is currently the pride of my life! My dad left my mom when I was young. My mom and dad just didn’t work; which was fine, because now that I’ve gotten older I see why. He isn’t the greatest provider. I honestly feel like he can not stand to be around me, or anyone else for that matter for very long. I have an older sister named Mandy. She is out on her own now and married. I’m not to close to any of my other family besides my aunt Melody, we even started going to college together; my grandma, because I grew up with that woman! Besides that I love every part of my family that has embraced me, but I love my mom and sister especially. I appreciate everything my mom does no mater how much, or how little it might show from me, and same goes for my sister and grandma; as for my dad, I will always love him because he is my dad. I just wish he could be here more for me.

My dad is the most big-headed, arrogant liar, and money hungry person I have ever met. Ever since I was little, me and him always had some sort of conflict. If it was me doing something for him to be nice or kill time, or him giving me orders he was always so temperamental. Everything I did pushed his buttons, he had serious issues. I could tell my dad just didn’t like kids. I mean not back then, because I was a kid, but now I can just tell. He’d get so mad if everything wasn’t HIS way. If he had to go out of his way for someone else-good luck with that! He hardly ever kept his promises to me. I don’t even know why he stuck around. Ever since I’ve gotten older the more distance he has become. I guess he feels like since I’m older I don’t need him.. need him for what is what I want to know?! Maybe he feels pushed away by me because I’m older. I don’t see how, I mean he isn’t the easiest person to get close to. My top reasoning is because I’m growing up. He sees I need my space and I’m not his little guy anymore, but whatever it might be I’m not sure what to say my dad did for me. I’m grateful he was in my life growing up I needed that, but it just sucks all I can remember is him showing off to his friends that he was spending time with me so we’d hang out with them, just like as soon as we were on the way home he’d want me to call grandma (his mom) to tell her that I was with him and to talk about how much fun we had- to make him look good, after him beating the shit out of me, him getting pissy and yelling at me, or me going home every other visit crying about how much he upsets me and hurts my feelings. I felt pretty much like a trophy, #1 son, worldest great dad shit, yeah okay. But what about now, I think now I need him more then ever and he’s not even around. He definitely doesn’t deserve “The greatest dad award,” but like I said as least he tried, a lot of parents wouldn’t do that much for their kids. Just wish things could of been better and that we were close. 

  I’m gay, I came out in 8th grade because I was dating a guy I really liked and I wanted to tell everyone how I felt about this guy. I got made fun of, talked about, called names.. you know typical coming out drama. Before I was gay, I was ‘Bisexual.’ That was after I had a girlfriend and before I told the first guy I liked him, in middle school. That was really just a way of coming out easier I think.. like a lot of gay guys seem to do it that way. My mom sister, and Aunt Melody (my closet aunt) know about me being gay now but none of my other family does, anyways not that I know of. My moms cried when I told her, but she is better about it now and is still kind of getting used to it. My sister, she is cool about, but we really haven’t even talked about it, and my aunt is whatever about it. They all love me no matter what though all all said. My sister, I just kind of told her on the phone once, when we were talking. It’s almost like living two lives when I’m around the family, it’s kinda weird. I’m not telling my dad until I’m married. If we’re still talk to each other by then. Long story, but my dad and I just aren’t close. He’s selfish, cheap, narrow-minded, and I think he’s a pothead. If it wasn’t the fact that he was my dad I wouldn’t even care about that man, I wouldn’t even give him the time of day, if I didn’t feel like by some miracle that HE could help me out someday, if I ever needed that, ah. I just don’t want to have a broken family I guess. Random but, I think it’s ridiculous how some black people are homophobes! They got bashed years ago and some still do. So I think they need to lay off of gay people and stop looking like hypocrites!

• Music:

My favorite genres of music are pop, dance, house and electro. I love it so much, because they all have good beats and high bass. The bass, it gives me chills sometimes. Music is really a great escape, especially when you’re stressed or need a time out from life. Also with homework, it like helps me crank out my homework! There’s a song and lyrics for any mood, and music is there when no one else is.  I don’t like when people call dance or electro music, techno. It’s like degrading the music I feel like. To me techno is flat, repetitious, and one beat. I know ‘pop’ music stands for POP-ULAR music, and some people don’t like it because it’s too mainstream. I disagree, I say if it’s pop then it must be good. Just because it’s everywhere and a lot of people enjoy it makes it a problem? I mean, I know it’s because of the artists label and all, but we shouldn’t hate it, we should embrace it! I love a lot of music though and if people recommend something I will most likely enjoy it. :)

“Britney, I truly believe, is the sweetest and most down to earth pop star that is currently out today. First of all, for her to go through what she did and come back and still be successful is an inspiration in itself. But besides that, just look at her. She is one of the few who despite all her fame will still walk into Target to shop. When she is walking outside, she’s not in expensive ass designer shoes and dresses; she has on some freaking Uggs and shorts and a tank with her hair in a nasty ass ponytail. You NEVER hear her putting down anyone else. She doesn’t diss her peers. She doesn’t have an ego. She’s just Britney. All that plus the fact that she just puts out continuously fun and pure pop music makes her my favorite.”

—Kingsley, on Britney Spears

Britney Spears has been a favorite of mine since I was a little boy! I think my sister got me hooked on her. She’s been around for as long I was alive and I loved growing up listening to her. She was like one of the ones that DIDN’T die out as an artist! But yeah, she’s been through some tough, tough times and people look down on her for that. It really pisses me off how people judge someone famous when a celebrity does the same things we, the ‘average’ people do on a daily basis. If you think about, all those scandals, rumors, and her life put out in public in the spot light that can really break a person down and that’s what happened. That’s why I love her though, she’s a strong woman and she’s doing what we all do and that’s called being human. She’s my hero, my inspiration and my happiness.

“THE FEMME FATALE TOUR” WITH BRITNEY SPEARS, NICKI MINAJ, JESSIE & THE TOY BOYS, AND NERVO ON JULY 22ND, 2011, AT THE AMWAY CENTER, IN ORLANDO, FL AT 7:00PM TO 11:00PM! <3 

“GREEN WAVES 3” WITH DEV, ALESSO, 3LAU, AND KILLAGRAM ON APRIL 11TH, 2012 AT THE UFC ARENA, IN ORLANDO, FL AT 7:00PM TO 11:00 PM! <3 

• School:

I used to have asthma but I grew out of it. When I was younger in elementary school I got held back twice from missing so much school. I was out sick a lot, because I had two asthma attacks. It’s when you stop breathing or like can’t catch air in your lungs when you breathe. Which is totally scary when you’re in kindergarten and first grade! Hopefully my asthma will be gone for good now.

My parents said I use to love school. I don’t really remember that to much! All I remember enjoying 2nd, 3rd, and 4th grade at Chisholm Elementary, because I loved the teachers! I also made two (ex-) best friends David (2nd grade) and Kayla (3rd grade.) Then, David and I kind of just stopped being best friends like two years later. Then soon to follow, the same happen with Kayla and I at New Smyrna Beach Middle School. She eventually moved to Georgia, later on during school in 7th grade. 8th grade for me was the best of Middle School and up until that point! I made new friends, had a few good close friends, made memories, had a girl friend, two boy friends, and learned a lot about trust, fake friends, moving on, and growing up. It was life changing for me really.

High School came around and I just wasn’t thinking for myself. I remember I was so excited and extremely nervous about going to The New Smyrna Beach High School. It was a big step from the middle school. I realized that was the last school I’d be going to until I was out on my own as an adult. The year started off fairly well, but then I started missing school. Staying up late and getting sick from staying up. My body was messed up and was on a horrible sleeping pattern. Then by the end of the year I found out I wasn’t going to be passing the 9th grade. My GPA was like point something it was really bad. I started thinking, “Should I just repeat this school year again?” Then I thought.. getting held back for the 3rd time (Two times in elementary from asthma) would mean I’d be like 21 when I graduate 12th grade and that would be ridiculous and so much time would be lost! So I decided not to go through with it. People say “High School is the best times of your life” well I don’t believe that. Everyone is really fake and it’s full of drama. The sad part is I feel like there’s a gap in my life now. High school is a big part of life I feel like but in reality I was just out of choices. So I decided to go with what was probably the best and that was transferring to DSC for my GED.

I’m currently attending Daytona State College to get my associates degree in psychology. After that, I plan on transferring to a university in Orlando. I love psychology I think it’s such an interesting thing to learn about. The human mind, the way people analyze things, and the way the brain works. So after about four years of schooling I’ll be ready to make my dream a reality. I’m hoping to get into philosophy too, maybe even teaching for elementary. For now though, I’m going to stick to the dream of being a therapist.

• Dislikes and Likes Lists:

I love - My friends, Britney Spears, Nicki Minaj, Nikon camera’s, MacBooks, psychology, new friends, funny people, good people, chill people, sweet people, ghetto people, cute accents, good photography, pictures from magazines, taking pictures, good times, memories, texting, loud music, bass, dancing like a fool, scary movies with friends, cute movies, old movies, old timey cartoons, texting late, good conversations, writing, journals, scrap books, talking, money, shopping, malls, warm and cold days, chilly nights, secrets, adventures, my bed, pillows, soft blankets, cuddling, holding hands, hugs, kisses, spooning, nature, starry nights, fresh air, rain, fall, lovable animals, really green grass, pretty flowers, sunflowers, bright colors, cool colors, flannels, skinny jeans, cut-offs, Vans, Nikes, flip-flops, Fierce Cologne, Chi Straighteners, Fiji Water, iced mocha’s, Publix’s Sweet Tea, Subway Sub’s.

I hate - Liars, backstabbers, cheaters, tools, whores, sluts, stubbornness, arrogant people, moody people, rude people, bossy people, egos, procrastinating, being late, insomnia, bad breathe, bugs, bad body oder, losing, getting bad grades, being talking down to, waking up with no texts, waking up early, alarm clocks, school, animal cruelty, losing a friend, dull moments, narrow-minded people, days and nights that are cut short, bright sunlight in the mornings, needles, headaches, being sick, pain, yelling, fighting, fake friends, not having my ipod, dead batteries, math, numbers, reading books, tomatoes, cherries, lemons, Dr. Pepper, Pepsi, and Root Beer.

• My Favorites:

Season: Fall 

Color: Purple

Food: Chicken Alfredo, pizza, spaghetti

Drink: Publix Sweet Tea, Coke, ice water.

Artist: Britney Spears and Nicki Minaj

Type of Music: Pop, Electro/Dance, Trace/ House and Hip-Hop/Rap.

Part of Day: Nighttime

Places: Walmart, the mall (anywhere shopping), driving around, pretty places (escapes), friends houses (wherever, just not at my house), and my bed.

People: Pamela, Nicole, and my mom.

Things to Do: Texting, being busy, and blogging.

Movies: I Love You Philip Morris, The Dark Knight, A Clockwork Orange, Girl Interrupted, The Wizard Of Oz, The Devil Wears Prada, 2012, Gone With The Wind, 500 Days Summer, I’m Not Scared, Silent Hill, The Birds, Killer Clowns from Outer Space, Labyrinth, The Blair Witch Project, Poltergeist, The Amityville Horror, House of Wax, Black Christmas, Saw Series, Chucky Movies, Halloween Series, Nightmare on Elm Street, The Gremlins, Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory, The Breakfast Club, Sixteen Candles, Beetle Juice, Donnie Darko, Spirited Away, Kiki’s Delivery Service, Howl’s Moving Castle, Ponyo, Thelma and Louise,  Party Monster, Juno, Diary of a Mad Black Woman, Madea Goes to Jail, Marley and Me, The Notebook, UP!, Wall-E, Bruno, Spongebob Squarepants The Movie, Matilda, The Goonies, Aladdin, Snow White, The Rescuers, any of the old Disney classic movies, and Logo Movies.

TV Shows: Spongebob, Flapjack, Adventure Time, Degrassi, iCarly, Family Guy, King of The Hill, ATHF, Super Jail, The Mighty Boosh, Tim & Eric: Great Job, Kitchen Nightmares, The Bad Girls Club, Roseanne, Sabrina the Teenage Witch, Peep, The Magic School Bus, Little Bear, Property Virgins, infoMania, Vanguard, The Rotten Tomatoes Show, and Max and Jason.

• My Blog

I blog about a whole lot of nothing: rambles, thoughts, ideas, venting, stories about myself, my day, how I’m feeling, art, quotes, sayings, pictures of cute boys, Britney Spears, artists, celebrities, pretty things, animals, movies, clothing, styles, fashion, models, photography, tons of reblogs and anything that’s inspirational to me. 

I post things I like, I reblog and reply to things I like. I like things I like, and things I like will go here. If you don’t like it, tough banana’s!

It’s a blog. My blog is my journal and it’s like my best friend. A best friend that I never shut the fuck up to! It’s like a scrap book of memories and inspiration. It stores all my feelings on public and private. When I can’t put in words how I’m feeling I blog it. When I don’t want to complain or whine to other people I blog about it. I find it really helpful. It’s mine and I love it. Some people just don’t understand tumblr or blogging. Some people just don’t care to write and others don’t have the time or patience’s to sit and look through pages of stuff. To be honest, I really don’t care though. It’s MY blog and MY writing. It’s addicting, like smoking. It can be as fun as video games. People are just into different things and my thing happens to be blogging. :D